I went to see a doctor in 2012 because of ongoing pain in my lower back. They did an MRI and I was diagnosed with arthrosis, slipped discs, pinched nerves, inflammation in the bones and extremely tensed up muscles due to all those conditions. I went to osteopathy, physiotherapy, acupuncture, cranio sacral. Nothing really helped.

8 years later – still with heavy chronic pain 24/7 – I went to see another doctor and did another MRI. The doctor said: your back looks like the one of a 65 year old woman. You have so many things in your back – I don’t even know where to start. You have this and this and this and that and also this and then… We can do an injection against the pain. But we can’t do anything else to help you.

I left completely desperate. I cried. I railed.

And the next day I decided to finally take care of myself and heal from inside.

Every day I now say out loud that I love myself and my wonderful body. I tell my spine that she’s beautiful, strong, flexible and vital and that I love her. I look at an image of a healthy spine every day and command my spine to look like that one. I eat vegan and glutenfree to stop inflammation. I ad ginger, tons of fruits, coriander, turmeric and many other beneficial nutrients. I self-massage my back every morning and night and I do relaxation exercices befor sleeping. I do the right movements and avoid the wrong ones.

It will take time. But it’s my body. And I deserve to be free of pain, healthy and strong. Only then I can powerfully serve others.